It’s so unusual for me to associate positivity with myself. I have always been a strongly pessimistic person. This has often spiralled into periods of depression - solely due to my own lack of optimism. I have fought my own battles and others too. Unemployment, crippling shyness, weight and body issues, rejection - it hurt.
But somewhere, completely out of nowhere I am feeling optimistic, and in turn feeling a greater sense of happiness in my life. I have spent the majority of January reflecting, and ultimately discovering a whole new way of life.
I thought to myself: What truly makes me happy? And from then I reminded myself that I have so many things to be gracious for every single day. You know life, actually is pretty good.
My marriage is my backbone and marrying relatively young has made me grasp a true sense of belonging. I always wanted to marry, and looking back now I always knew it was going to be to my husband, there was no question of doubt otherwise. I am not ashamed to say that my biggest certainty, priority and ambition is to have a long, everlasting, truthful and fulfilled marriage.
At the end of last year I was offered a full-time job working for a local clothing wear manufacturer, which I had previously shown great interest in, but had been unsuccessful. This time, I guess was my time. I’ve gone back to my roots, and joined an embroidery team. Textiles has always been a part of me, and I do feel most at home in this area.
A new year, and new job has given me a new routine and securing a permanent contract has given my life and finances a much needed boost. I’m excited to see where this opportunity takes me.
Health and Well-being.
When I began my weight loss journey 2 years ago, I was trapped in a body I loathed. I had zero confidence and hated myself. I did the impossible; I lost weight, got fit and gained that confidence I had never had before.
I have come to the conclusion that I will always be ‘a little bit picky’ about what goes into my body. But crucially I have learnt that no matter what influence somebody else can have, the only person responsible for their own health is you. I have learnt to love and value GOOD food and real nutrition.
On the 1st January I weighed myself for the very first time since returning from Honeymoon last June and the weight wasn’t as scary as anticipated, in fact scary at all. All the excess Christmas food hadn’t harboured me as much as I had thought. There was room for improvement, but my BMI was finally a healthy and positive figure. I was smiling and genuinely pleased that I was finally at a point of healthy.
Running is still a huge part of my life, it is my favourite hobby and I still get the greatest satisfaction from running. I have managed to tailor my running schedule and added new routes and distances. I’ve let myself have more rest time, but consistently ran at a pace that feels good. I’ve fought through the winter months, but can only anticipate spring/summer. I’ve got a feeling it’s going to be a good year.
So that’s it in a nutshell.
Marriage, work, and a hobby that both occupies and fuels my passion. But that’s simple enough for now, learning to value the small things, and devoting time and effort into them of course outweighs trying to split too many ways and ultimately self-combusting.
Life is as simple as you make it – and from my own experiences I can truly say the key to happiness is a healthy mind, body and outlook on life.
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