Oh So Quiet
I suddenly have the urge to write, and finally sit down and blog. It’s been a busy couple of weeks for me, since returning from holiday I have really thrown myself into a number of activities – from setting up my own cleaning business (living the glam lifestyle) and working for myself, to getting fit and putting my running shoes on, to selling my wares at the car boot and inevitably bringing some home too. I’ve pushed myself to the ultimate extreme and it’s been challenging, but one hundred and ten percent worthwhile – I genuinely feel refreshed, rejuvenated and stronger than I have ever felt.
If I’m being totally honest, this time 6 months ago I led a very different lifestyle - I was lethargic, unhealthy, boring and most concerning unhappy with myself. It’s such a difficult thing to admit – my life has always been shadowed with uncertainty and I’ve often been crippled with shyness and confidence issues. I’ve had my hard share of knockbacks and disappointments in various aspect of my life, but I do believe these have shaped me and taught me the value of inner strength.
I’m lucky that I have had the incredible support of my long-term love (and husband to-be) Simon, which has been the real making of me. Before I met him I was a lost little girl, tied up in my own troubles and so shadowed from the world. I hadn’t experienced life as I know it now - I hadn’t travelled, I hadn’t developed my own independence, I hadn’t got into a car and learnt to drive, and most significantly I hadn’t learnt to love. He has whole-heartedly provided me with courage, strength and determination and most significantly a purpose and zest for life. He is my back bone and I know without him I wouldn’t be the same person that I am today.
Sometimes the most simple of things seem the biggest struggle for me – making conversations and talking to strangers is my most deep rooted issue and has stuck with me my entire life. But from what I often lack in confidence, I do strongly believe I make up for in passion. I have that burning desire to create, make, do, mend, and be happy.
What I have learnt is that you really do carve your own lifestyle out. Life can throw you some obstacles and at times the whole world can seem against you – but ultimately life is yours. And you have to grab it with both hands. You can’t afford to sit on the side lines and be unhappy. You might not have the best job, or an attractive set of luxuries to go with it – but ‘lifestyle’ is free, you can be whoever you want to be.