Hello.
I suddenly have the urge to write, and finally sit down and
blog. It’s been a busy couple of weeks for me, since returning from
holiday I
have really thrown myself into a number of activities – from setting up my own cleaning business (living the glam lifestyle) and working for myself, to
getting fit and putting my running shoes on, to selling my wares at the car
boot and inevitably bringing some home too. I’ve pushed myself to the ultimate
extreme and it’s been challenging, but one hundred and ten percent worthwhile –
I genuinely feel refreshed, rejuvenated and stronger than I have ever
felt.
If I’m being totally honest, this time 6 months ago I led a
very different lifestyle - I was lethargic, unhealthy, boring and most
concerning unhappy with myself. It’s such a difficult thing to admit – my life has always
been shadowed with uncertainty and I’ve often been crippled with shyness and
confidence issues. I’ve had my hard share of knockbacks and disappointments in
various aspect of my life, but I do believe these have shaped me and taught me
the value of inner strength.
I’m lucky that I have had the incredible support of my long-term love (and husband to-be) Simon, which has been the
real making of me. Before I met him I was a lost little girl, tied up in my own
troubles and so shadowed from the world. I hadn’t experienced life as I know it
now - I hadn’t travelled, I hadn’t developed my own independence, I hadn’t got
into a car and learnt to drive, and most significantly I hadn’t learnt to love.
He has whole-heartedly provided me with courage, strength and determination and
most significantly a purpose and zest for life. He is my back bone and I know
without him I wouldn’t be the same person that I am today.
Sometimes the most simple of things seem the biggest
struggle for me – making conversations and talking to strangers is my most deep
rooted issue and has stuck with me my entire life. But from what I often lack in confidence, I
do strongly believe I make up for in passion. I have that burning desire to
create, make, do, mend, and be happy.
What I have learnt is that you really do carve your own
lifestyle out. Life can throw you some obstacles and at times the whole world
can seem against you – but ultimately life is yours. And you have to grab it with both hands. You
can’t afford to sit on the side lines and be unhappy. You might not have the best job, or an
attractive set of luxuries to go with it – but ‘lifestyle’ is free, you can be
whoever you want to be.
♥
