I don’t think I have ever felt so relieved to be nearing the end of a year and beginning a new one. I have had a pretty rough ride this past year. Even though there were incredible highs in 2012 (my engagement in Paris and finally passing my driving test), which I will take with me and remember for the rest of my life - this was the year that truly challenged me in ways I didn’t think were possible.
Dealing with emotion and feelings has never been my strong point and I have spent so many days of 2012 feeling a mixture of sadness and disappointment in my life. Wishing that things were different for me and that I wasn’t constantly fighting a battle.
2013 is about me getting to the place I want to be – and not giving up until I get there. No more regretting things that can’t be changed and trying to look to the past for answers – it stops here. This is the year I move forward and never look back.
If you don’t succeed – then try, and try again.
Job rejections drained every inch of me, and the genuine disappointment in being unsuccessful time and time again really took my last little bit of confidence away. I see January as a new start, wiping the slate clean once and for all – forgetting those failed interviews and difficult rejections.
Optimism: I need to treat every job I apply for as a potential opportunity, and see where that takes me. I have to prepare myself for disappointment, but also success. One day it might surprise me. *I need to remember this one.
I plan to continue my voluntary work at the charity shop, and I also have taken a paid job at Cancer Research UK. The news came the week before Christmas, it was offered to me having been unsuccessful in a previous position I had applied for a few months ago. I am pleased to know that they kept me in mind and I was suitable when this position cropped up.
The job itself is only 5 hours per week – which of course is no means of an income, but the opportunity to work in a paid position within a charity shop is certainly one I am going to grab with both hands. My passion has and will always be with charity shops, so I see this as a new adventure.
Never stop dreaming, because following a dream, however big is certainly the greatest thing of all - that no one can ever take away from you.