Truth to be told I haven’t been happy with the way my life has been going for a long time. You go to school to learn, all for the hope of a bright future. Yet when reality hits, it’s not what it’s supposed to be like.
I have tried to dig myself out of this hole so many times. Years have passed by and yet I still am in the same situation I was in right at the beginning. It feels like life is paused, and therefore never can move forward or ever catch up with those who have.
If I didn’t have passion, ambition or an ounce of intelligence, I think I would have given up a long time ago, but part of me still feels I’m worth more than a life of nothing.
Part of my problem is I’m so unbelievably weak when it comes to rejection. I spend days crying about it, telling myself I am not good enough, therefore never will be, instead of just having the courage to move on.
I wish I was one of those people who had it all sussed, because believe me right now I couldn’t feel anymore tormented and challenged by life.