Drive vs Ambition

Sometimes I wonder why I still feel defeated most days?

Never stop searching.

Is it because I haven’t achieved what I set out to do in my 27 years? But, then I question what exactly was that?

A little while ago a colleague of my husband’s said how she felt I’d achieved so much...

"Alice, all you need to do is think about what you have achieved... Lost weight, got fit, ran a marathon & got the job of your dreams - if I were you I would be the most confident person ever"

I felt a klaxon go off in my mind, as I realised that all of these things… were achievements, and massive goals for me… I’d not only done them, I’d smashed them. I’d turned my life around, and somehow found my true self in the process.

But, deep down in my heart I know there’s more. So much more left to do.

Last year I drew up a 30 before 30 list to keep myself in check – I was a woman with a mission. (Like many before me). I was determined to complete not just one, but the entire 30 on my list.

Well I’m 12 down, with 18 left to go. It’s a work in progress.

What did I really expect to have achieved by now?

The truth is. I just don’t know. I’m a dreamer and I have wild ambitions to forge a life which is full of creativity, love, passion and undying happiness. Is that really possible?

Like every dream, if you believe it possible – then I truly think it is.

♥

The next BIG trip.

Well, it’s no lie that I feel worried when there is nothing planned ahead. I sometimes beat myself up about feeling this way. Some people may argue that ‘having something booked’ is not a necessary life requirement, but in my experience it helps.

I think it’s normal to feel that longing… because we all want to enjoy the best out of life and we know how much travel enriches our lives. If I had never dared to travel and see the world, then I wouldn’t be the person I am today.

When we left Malaysia in May we promised not to book something straight away on our return. As this habit always reoccurs, and we usually have next year’s full itinerary planned before we even know it.

Having two months to reflect on Vietnam and just how much we took from the trip, has undoubtedly fuelled and restored our dreams and ambitions. On honeymoon two years ago, we drew up a bucket list of all the places we would love to visit one day. We promised one and other that we would try our best to make it happen.

Well, this one was definitely wholesomely my favourite. I have been planning this one in my heart for a very long time.

I’m SO in love with this destination. I always go back to this one on Pinterest. Always. And can only imagine how incredible this place will make me feel inside.

Next stop: BALI.

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Asia with Love

There is no denying that my heart and soul belongs to Asia. When I travelled to Thailand for the first time– my life changed in an instant. I was overcome with passion for a country so vivid and endearing. I was in love with a culture that not only taught me to overcome my fears, but made me realise what life really is all about.

I always think of Thailand as my love affair. A longing for a country that fills me with so much everlasting joy. 

When I travelled to Vietnam – a country that had fascinated me for so long. The history and traditions were not only enriched in my mind, but my imagination had painted such a beautiful picture. Ha Long bay, was my first encounter with natural beauty.



 I dared to dig deeper, and stopped looking for perfection. When it was starting at me right in the face – a Hoi An street stripped back all my filters and perceptions.

Malaysia was a true paradise. I was blown away by the beautiful beaches in Langkawi, I felt my jaw dropping at every glimpse of the serene and raw beauty.  Penang was a wild and surreal glimpse into the future. I felt almost like a flamboyant tourist in a wacky state. It was pretty cool, wandering around the graffiti covered streets of George Town.

My final stop in Malaysia was Kuala Lumpur. I had dreamt of the moment I would stand in front of the Petronas Towers for years. Like a mile stone. Is it possible to romance over a building, a statue, a tower? I think so.

Like, the Eiffel Tower five years earlier – I couldn’t take my eyes off the height, and sheer beauty of the towers. A view I had somewhat waited my whole life to capture. But, in those split seconds – absorbed forever.

When people describe the time of their lives...

Asia, is wholeheartedly mine.

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